Beauty Lives In Me Too

“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.” Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

One of my favorite songs is “Beauty Lives In Me.” I remember the first time I heard it. It wasn’t the music that grabbed my attention. It was the lyrics, especially “beauty lives in me; I know, I don't yet know it; so I trust you when you say that beauty lives in me too.” For most of my life I could see the beauty around me, the amazing Appalachian mountains and then the Atlantic ocean. I could see beauty in the acts of my friends and loved ones as I went through a horrible time in my life when my kidneys failed and I had to go on dialysis for 8 months. I saw beauty in the brother who saved my life with a kidney donation. Through the years I have watched others do and give and I felt like the odd man out because I didn’t see any beauty in me. I felt broken, scarred. My arms were so full of needle marks from the hemodialysis so I was constantly hiding them. I couldn’t hide the scars inside, though. I was definitely caught up in my pity party even to the point of raging against a God that I thought was treating me unfairly with all the crap I had endured. That was when I still envisioned a punishing God.

Fast forward to many years and deep introspections later, I began to see that I was not a victim. When I heard “you are worthy” being said to me for the very first time ever, something clicked inside. I had not felt worthy my entire life. I started to question it. What does that mean? What makes me worthy? Can I lose my worthiness? It took me down a trail where I followed the breadcrumbs and found mentors and guides. Everyone had the same response. Yes, you are worthy. You are enough just as you are. Being sick does not mean you are being punished. It just means you got sick! Once I got out of the blame/shame/guilt game, I started to heal those scars that were on the inside. The more I let go of false beliefs, the more I saw myself as beautiful. Self-affirmations helped tremendously. I was constantly placing sayings everywhere to remind me in case I slipped back into the old mindset. I drew a heart in the middle of my bathroom mirror that would encase my face each time I looked in it. I wrote the words “you are beautiful” on the mirror so that I would hear that daily. Yes, beauty lives in me and I do know it. I pray that if you are reading this and you cannot see the beauty in you, that you will hear these words. You are beautiful. You are worthy.

Angels, why is it so hard to let go of the things and beliefs that do not serve us, those things that keep us in low vibration and low self-worth?

Dear Ones, so many times we watch you struggle with finding your way back to your pure soul essence once you start learning life’s lessons on earth. When you choose to come into a human experience, it is to fully understand the meaning of love. It is to be able to see all aspects of yourself. Everything you see, every encounter you have during the experience is for your full understanding of you – the real you. Not the person walking around in a human bodysuit. When you are stuck in the mindset that the body is who you are, then you begin to lose sight of the fact that your vessel is only temporary. It is only “hard” for you to let go because you forget that fact. To see the beauty inside of you means you have found your way back home. Stay in your heart as that is your home. Home is not a destination; it is your journey.

Dear Angels, thank you for always helping me to feel loved and beautiful. I love you. Namaste y'all.

Teri Angel is an angelspeaker – one who receives and delivers messages from the Divine. She is an author, teacher, peaceful warrior and creator of the movement Peas For Peace as part of the Peace On Earth Tour, a movement of loving our Mama Gaia. You can contact her at teri@angelspeakers.com or visit the website http://www.angelspeakers.com for more information about how you can be involved in the movement and mission to bring in more peace, love and joy to our planet.